Feb 1st, 2012
Ok, so I’m going to get personal on you today. {You are going to be nice, right!?!?} I’m not going to lie, this is HARD FOR ME. My goal this year is to be more OPEN about what’s going on in my head. I need to GET REAL here on All Things Thrifty, and I’ve decided that I need to be able to vent sometimes. I know that may sound simple, but because of my personality, it is hard for me to do this {here} in the public eye.
So, prepare yourself for some venting. I tend to over analyze things, and I worry that by sharing {personal} struggles, you might think I’m a weirdo or something. So, try and go easy on me since I’m not a strong person {in this area}.
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I have ALWAYS had to worry about my weight. It is a constant roller coaster. It goes up and occasionally it goes down, but mostly it just seems to keep climbing higher and higher. A few years ago, I got the motivation bug and lost 50 pounds. It felt good and I was quite proud. Then I got pregnant again.
I could give you a million excuses including genetics, having babies, and a really bad car accident {even a compound fracture ankle injury}, but I won’t. I know that my weight is completely MY FAULT. My appetite is large and my physical activity isn’t where it needs to be, so as a result, so is my toosh. It seems quite simple.
One of my biggest downfalls about myself is being self conscious. I am really hard on myself, and I’m especially hard on myself about my body. I get emotional about it. I know that there is nobody in the world that can lose the weight for me. Whenever I have a baby, I gain weight. I gain a LOT of weight. I’m not going to put a number on the weight I gained during Creed’s pregnancy because quite frankly, I can’t even say it out loud. I know that me and food are kind of enemies. I let my guard down for a week and I gain five pounds. That is no lie. I can eat and eat and eat. I don’t really have a “stop” button.
I had been losing weight on weight watchers before the holidays and I had done pretty darn good. I had lost about 20 pounds!! YAY ME!…Then the holidays come and I wasn’t careful {because it’s the holidays} ya know!?!? Well, I gained a lot.
So ever since the holidays have been over, I have been trying REALLY hard to lose weight again. Overall I have lost 25 pounds so far, and I’m really proud of myself.  BUT, I have a long way to go. I know that to be at a healthy weight for my strapping 5’5” frame I need to lose a lot more weight.
So, I did something DRASTIC. I joined a community “BIG LOSER” competition {a spin off of biggest loser} here in St. George, Utah. I will be participating in a weekly challenge on my 10 participant team {7 of which are my good friends}. I am going to be working my butt off {literally} for the next 10 weeks! Try and be patient as I add {just one more thing} to my plate.
I decided that I should share what I am going through personally so that maybe you {might} get a glimpse into the mind of Brooke from All Things Thrifty for a minute. So, tell me, is this something that you would like me to blog about? {My weight loss journey?} The competition starts tonight!
Just to be clear, you won’t be getting any before pictures of this girl. But, you can imagine quite accurately if you watch the real “Biggest Loser.” :) Ha ha.

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